All I Know is that I'm Sad

I said nothing and talked much.
She asked me, “Are you okay?”
I said with a big smile on my face, “Yes! I’m okay.”
She asked me, “Are you okay?”
I said with a faked, forced smile, “I’m okay.”
Though my eyes are getting wet and my nose is getting near red, I still said, “I’m okay.”
She put her palms at my back, comforting, I just smiled without her seeing it.
He asked me, “Do you have something to eat?”
I said with a wide forced smile, “I’m sorry, I don’t have any.”
I told him, “I’m sorry if it didn’t work out.”
He told me with a sad face, “It’s okay.”
He called me and gave me something for a better paper,
I thank him with a forced smile.
I asked him, “Can I go now?”
He said, “Okay, if you don’t have anything to do so that you can rest.”
I told him with a forced smile, “My work is on the next session so I do not have something to do now. Thank you.”
She asked me, “What is the reason behind?”
I said, “It’s just a matter between me and myself.”
She didn’t believe me and forced me to tell her.
I told her, “Everything is my fault. It all happened because I am not worth it. I never do anything right. And I’m sorry.”
She asked me with care, “Are you okay?”
I turn my back on her and said, “Yes.”
I can’t face her because my eyes are wet and red as so as my nose.
She might mistook me.
I might look like rude to her.
But I don’t want someone or somebody to see me sad.
There might be some who really cares.
There might be some who want to know just for the sake of knowing.
I don’t know if I have some.
I don’t know if I have the best of them.
All I feel is that, I’m alone.
Nobody cares.